Busy.... and missing love

I have started watching this TV series, Gossip Girl. Ok, I've never really been the type of girl who likes the drama and the "o he said she said" kind of thing, yet this show is pretty entertaining. I also like Dexter. I watch both of these online for free! :)

My parents have been a little stressed lately... or they seem like it at least. So argumentative and defensive and it is driving me insane. I have been really tired lately and just plain busy. Here is my weekend. Saturday I have to record a song for my pageant, then 5-8 is dinner at the head person of the pageant. Sunday I have mock trial from 3-6 and then I am preforming "I'll be Home for Christmas" at a recital . I do not know why I do this to myself, yet it is killing me.

Even though I am busy, it also kills me to see my x-boyfriend walk by at school. Today I saw him 3 times, and it didn't seem that he saw me at all. Apparently there are two guys that like me though....
"A" and also a guy friend of mine who just asked me on a date, but i don't know how well that will work since he doesn't even have his drivers license yet and he's a junior (he will be known as "R"). R is nice and all, yet I don't think he is my type. A... well I think he is looking for an innocent relationship, the kind where you don't do anything like in middle school, just the tittle. I wonder if he is ready for one. With S, I have face-booked him a while ago saying "hi" and no response thus far.... I will try to keep telling myself to stay strong, yet I can't deny the fact that I just want a guy to love me, and to hold me, protect and help me through this troubled time. Maybe that is why I try to stay busy, so I don't think about guys too much or at all. I refuses to call myself despret though, because if I was, then I'd go with any guy that likes me. I have standards still.

No comments to comment back on :'( i feel lonely, You won't comment and you won't share my blog with anyone else.... that is your job as a follower, maybe I should stop doing my job and not blog. how do you like that? :P

Sincerely,

Shelly

Steven Lynch- Special Ed.... (if you are "special" or have someone near and dear to you that is... do NOT watch. I did not post this to insult, yet just to give you all a good laugh).

STRESS is eating my brain!

I feel so stressed still. Some nights I find myself crying, and now Vocal Ensomble is now becoming busy as well. I don't know how, But I manage to keep my grades up with A's and B's, with only one C. I find that really good. The puppy is getting really annoyin sometimes and I can't wait till he grows up. Then hopefully he won;t be such a pain. As soon as I gt home from school, my parents hand him off to me. I gt NO down time. I feel like I am neglecting my ferret since the pup needs all of my attention. It is even hard to do homework. Dad is still being a brat and is pissing me off. I just need a break from my life and just sleep for a week.


~My l<3ve life~
Well I think a guy was hitting on me last week. I had Mock Trial and the camera guy (he's a senior) who was filming us for the school news talked quiet a bit to me and said before he left that he would hit me up on face book. He did and we have been talking the whole day today. He seems nice, yet I can't decide if he is cute or not. Also if I want to go for a Senior.... even though my X-BF is one this year. Speaking of my X, I miss him so much. I don't know if I'm over him, yet I know he is over me. That boy in Vocal Ensemble has yet to reply even though it has been a month. I just sent him  message today saying "hi", If he responds then great, if not o well. I ca at least say I tried.

Ok I don't know about you, but I sometimes think tat you all might be getting confused since I on't use ames and I talk about all these guys, so here...
Guy who I kind of like in Vocal Ensemble- S
Guy who I kind of like in History- D
Resnt X-bf- Im gonna say X-bf # dependng on the x im talking about.... my resent who i've talked about is #6... so X-boyfriend #6
Guy who's liked me since Summer- A
(this guy s NOT apart of my love life, yet he is a guy who ik and I might brin up)best guy friend (who i my friend's bf... btw my friend used to  my best friend)- K

There... now u can ell the apart without names. I'll use this for now on.



Sincerely,

Shelly

Hillarious!



NEW PUPPY!

I just got a new dog, he is a black and tan miniweenier dog and is just 12 weeks old (i'll post a pic on here when I upload it from my itouch, look past my sincerely shelly). He's as cute as could be, yet he bites (just being playful though), so we have to break him of that habbit. I am hoping he will be my dog since all of the ther dogs we have had have never bee attached to me. He gets to sleep with me but in a creat since he is too small right now to sleep in my queen size bed. In a few months, he will be able to though :D. Dad is jelous and tries to steal him away from me. He always wants the dog to be on his lap and what not. :P

Dad has been really annoying lately with his snide comments towards me. I am trying not to let it get to me, yet it's hard. He always blams stuff on me and saying I am overly sensitive when I said that he was. I, a drama queen?? Excuse me??? Ugh! These are my feelings, not overly dramatic. Just how I feel. What is so wrong about that?

Sincerely,

Shelly

(I'll get you guys a pic of my dog! just not yet, I gotta upload the pics from my itouch... if i forget just comment to remind me!)

The Monster in my House

Well today we kicked some trial butt! I don't know the scores yet, it was pretty obvious we won. It was a thrill knowing that we won or 1st competition. I told my mom all about it and then my dad. My dad is apparently in a bad mood because he got mad at me again for no reason. he started being argumentative, yet I didn't engage so he threw that I was having attitude. I cried in my room because it seems that nothing I do i going to stop his anger. When he yells at me, I am afraid that he will hurt me again.

Just yesterday he actually complimented me on me babysitting the girls at the wedding. He said thank you for being a good cousin at the wedding. Just a true and honest compliment with no negative. Usually he will give  compliment, yet there is always a "but" to follow. It is really annoying and saddens me a lot. I don't understand how he gives a sincere compliment and then the next day be a total A-hole. I don't get him at all. I was going to eat, yet after he yelled at me I decided to get away from that monster and go up stairs. I'm hungry.

~Comment Time~

(To- Winda Tiodang "i am a new fashion blogger from indonesia living in singapore :) i really like your blog. i will really appreciate & it will be an honor to have u as my blog member. and of course i will folback!:D also, u can mention me anytime on twitter @tiodang if you want me to check out your latest post & leave a comment ^^ ,please list me on twitter, so i will know u're my follower!! ;) i've just recommend your post to google!u can check it! that's what u got if you keep in touch with my blog too!! hope u will do the same ^^ (u can add me on facebook and contact me at : cheeringwinda@yahoo.com)" on Long Time No Blog!) Thank you, I am glad you like my blog. I am sorry but I won't contact people from here on facebook, since that gives away my identity. Yet I would love to email you, just shoot me an email on shellyblog96@gmail.com and I will respond as soon as I check my mail :) As soon as I can, I will check out your blog... Infact I am going to have just created a new page on my blog where you can comment your blog so I will check it out, so if you want to comment there so i remember that would be GREAT!

Sincerely,

Shelly

The Element Song... (funny). Enjoy!

Long Time No Blog!

Hey so sorry I haven't blogged in awhile... guess i have been a little busy XP haha. well I'll catch you up!

Halloween is my favorite Holiday! This year I went to Knott's scaryfarm with my friend who just moved into my neighborhood, yet I've known her since my 7th grade year. She is just a year older than I am. It was a blast and instead of getting scared, we'd give the monsters funny comments, which got us kicked out from a maze because one of the monsters was mad by that (ya i don't know, i didn't know  monster could PMS, but o well).

I had Mock Trial Scrimmages. One on the 5th and the other on the 11th. The 1st one was against an "ok" high school. they weren't too good, and therefor we won. We played against our own high school the 2nd time and I don't know the results yet on that one. We have our 1st competition tomorrow and I don't know who we are playing against. It's going to be fun :D

My Pageant stuff is going along smoothly. Still have a lot of work to do, yet I'll get there. I had my 1st mock interview today to practice for when the judges will interview me. I did great for my 1st time, yet I have to work on the "umm", which I said... only 26 times haha XD So i must work on that one!

This weekend, I was a bridesmaid for my Brother's wedding. His wife is wonderful, I am truly glad for them both. We had to spend 2 nights at the hotel since the place of the wedding was about 1 hr and 30 min away. The bridesmaids shared a suite! and it had 3 rooms in it. I got paired up with my brother's half sister (to clear that up, she has the same mom as my brother. My brother and I share the same dad, so technically he is my half brother, yet he is still my brother all the same). Man, she is a chatter box! :P I swear my ears were bleeding haha. Basically I had to "babysit" her (shes in 7th grade) and my two twin 2nd cousins who are in 1st grade. My cousin were the ones filming for the wedding (that's his actual half time job), so I ha to make sure the kids weren't bothering him, so I was their entertainment for two days. I love kids, but for a little while... I need my space! I don't know how mothers do it haha. As a gift for being a bridesmaid, I got a Coach Wallet/thing that's big enough to hold my phone and money. Which is perfect since I usually don't carry a purse! I just came home this afternoon and was able to skip school today :)

The guy in my Vocal Ensomble class still has yet to message me back :P ust an FYI

O ya, and w might get a new puppy. Another weenier dog, black and tan. We will probably meet him tomorrow. I still miss our other dog though. It's only been about a month.I hope the dog that we have will get along with the possible addition to the family.

~Comment Time!~

(To- siricrazy "Love your blog!! Awesome keep up the good work check out my blog about its funny and crazy :) http://www.siricrazy.com/" on NOT pregnant :D)

Thank you so much! Any feedback I get from comments or emails, good or bad criticism, I really do appreciate it :D I will have to check that blog out! Also don't be afraid to be one of my followers and get the latest scoop on this blog :) Thanks again

This is all thus far.  will letcha know how my competition goes for mock trial.

sincerely,

Shelly

Three Days Grace- Gone Forever

I have this on my itouch. I miss my X-boyfriend, yet he is over me now. I relate to this song in that way. :P o well.