Busy.... and missing love

I have started watching this TV series, Gossip Girl. Ok, I've never really been the type of girl who likes the drama and the "o he said she said" kind of thing, yet this show is pretty entertaining. I also like Dexter. I watch both of these online for free! :)

My parents have been a little stressed lately... or they seem like it at least. So argumentative and defensive and it is driving me insane. I have been really tired lately and just plain busy. Here is my weekend. Saturday I have to record a song for my pageant, then 5-8 is dinner at the head person of the pageant. Sunday I have mock trial from 3-6 and then I am preforming "I'll be Home for Christmas" at a recital . I do not know why I do this to myself, yet it is killing me.

Even though I am busy, it also kills me to see my x-boyfriend walk by at school. Today I saw him 3 times, and it didn't seem that he saw me at all. Apparently there are two guys that like me though....
"A" and also a guy friend of mine who just asked me on a date, but i don't know how well that will work since he doesn't even have his drivers license yet and he's a junior (he will be known as "R"). R is nice and all, yet I don't think he is my type. A... well I think he is looking for an innocent relationship, the kind where you don't do anything like in middle school, just the tittle. I wonder if he is ready for one. With S, I have face-booked him a while ago saying "hi" and no response thus far.... I will try to keep telling myself to stay strong, yet I can't deny the fact that I just want a guy to love me, and to hold me, protect and help me through this troubled time. Maybe that is why I try to stay busy, so I don't think about guys too much or at all. I refuses to call myself despret though, because if I was, then I'd go with any guy that likes me. I have standards still.

No comments to comment back on :'( i feel lonely, You won't comment and you won't share my blog with anyone else.... that is your job as a follower, maybe I should stop doing my job and not blog. how do you like that? :P

Sincerely,

Shelly

Steven Lynch- Special Ed.... (if you are "special" or have someone near and dear to you that is... do NOT watch. I did not post this to insult, yet just to give you all a good laugh).