NOT pregnant :D

I finally was able to stay after school and go to CVS and get a pregnancy test! It came in a pack of two, I was so relieved to find that I am NOT carrying a baby. Thank goodness! My parents don't know and now they don't have to. I am relieved to not be freaking out, and not have it keep me up at night, just filled with stress. I am thankful.

I'm trying to convince myself that I don't want or need a guy in my life. I mean, I am only in high school, yet who am I kidding? hormones are in their highest. The guy I facebooked hasn't responded. He's been online since I messaged him. Also, it's been almost 2 weeks. I would be an idiot to make up excuses. He doesn't like me. I am not hurt really. Disappointed that it's not going to happen... maybe a little. There's still that guy in history whom my friend says that he looks that he likes me, highly doubt it though. I always manage to only get the geeky guys to like me, usually. That's about it.  will admit, my boyfriends never were cute looking. :P Maybe I'll catch a break sometime. So that's my love life... pretty bland. At least my heart won't be broken by a reckless boy (no offence to the boy readers).  keep trying to think I am better off alone, but I can't deny that I miss the feeling of love and sweet kisses of reckless love. Yet I will be more careful this time from after my stressful experience with might have been pregnant. I hope I am not boy crazed. I yearn for a guy, yet I am not desperate. I also like the idea of being strong and independent. I don't need a man to make me happy and all of that crap. I mean it is nice to be in a relationship, but I don't need it. I need to stop feeling pressure about it. My friend has a relationship, so does my X-best friend. :P ugh... I guess it's just my time to be the one... single.

O well.... life moves on and I have to memorize stuff for mock trial :) well, bye.



Sincerely,

Shelly

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