Mom says he is still going on the assumption that "I hate him". My opinion is that he needs to stop acting childish and get on his big boxers (or briefs). It's not like I am fighting back, but he seems to be fighting for mom's attention. I really don't know who is the child though; me or him? I don't think he will ever apologize for what he did. I almost cried last night as I tried to eat my hamburger, my lip hurt so bad. At least today it didn't sting so much. Call me a wuss, but he is a big man compared to me and he really did try to hurt me. Well just to shut me up, but still. I guess he doesn't want me to forgive him... How can you forgive what has not been apologized for, not saying that I would forgive him; at least not right now. Who knows when I could forgive him. I am told just to act normal and not let him affect me and my thoughts, yet I feel the "committee" in my head thinking about it; just going in circles about it. I try not to let it get to me, yet it feels like I lost a father. It hurts even more that he is still alive (not that I wish him dead) and that he chooses to "abandon" me. I don't understand it; heck, I have yet to understand him and I have known him for 13 years. I do feel like I do not have a father anymore. My mom is the only one out of the two who will actually truly talk to me. I'll admit, yes it hurts. It's not right, yet what am I to do? I am a child and they are my parents with the control; not me.
Sincerely,
Shelly <3
My cute pedicure :D but they charged ALOT :P o well!
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