Life rolls on

YAY!!! I have seven followers and five comments :D yes, I know that isn't very much, but that's ok. It's so weird having an audience now. Now I am reminded that much more that what I write is seen. It feels kind of powerful actually. So last night my little ferret was having tummy issues, so I stayed up till 3 in the morning holding him. Mom woke me up at 9, so I've had 6 hours of sleep and I need more to function. He's fine now, but I'd still like to take him to the vet. The problem is, mom won't let me. She doesn't even have him going for a yearly check up like the previous ferret (by the way he passed away when I was 10. R.I.P little guy). So I'm a little mad about that.

 I have registration for school on Thursday, so I'm hoping my skin will streer clear of break outs. Then the next day I am leaving for South Carolina for vacation. I will try to keep you all posted while I'm there. I come back on the second of September.

Today my dad and I exchanged all of one word... "hi". and that was tonight. Well things couldn't get anymore awkward. I really feel like I lost a father, but o well. At least he doesn't ignore me. Well he does in a way. Basically he's being childish still. He's probably upset and pout about all of this, but I did what I was told. I acted the way I normally would. This is going to be interesting with being on vacation. Not only is it going to be my parents and I, but also my grandma (Dad's mom), and my brother and his fiance. So the more the people the more of a drama show. We'll see how it goes, but over all I am excited. Mom says that we are going to try to go horse back riding, paddle boarding, para sailing, and much more.... I just seemed like a commercial right then.

Speaking of commercials, our tv has been pixelated and cutting out sound. We had a cable guy come out today and get us a new cable box; well that didn't fix it. Next stop, checking the tv for problems. Mom is pissed. She's also mad at sprint cell service because we have had a contract with unlimited picture mail, yet we can not get picture mail because it goes through the Internet. This in which we do not have. We can not change our plan because I had to get a new phone in January since my other one decided all of a sudden to break (no! I did not abuse it). The little part on the phone that you can hear the other person talk stopped working. So we have to wait until January of 2013 to get another plan. what I find more and more is that electronics do not help the parents "fuse" in the way of temper. So I'm surprised that the parents are being less strict with every generation. I would think that it would be just the opposite. There is more every generation for a parent to get their tidy Whiteies in a knot about.

Aww it's so sweet; my boyfriend called me just to say goodnight. I would have talked to him longer, but I'm not allowed to answer the phone after 10pm. It's nice to know that someone has me in mind and admires me with huge compation. I may not understand what he sees in me, but whatever it is, I hope he never stopps seeing it.

Also I would like to respond to the comments that my lovely "fans"... he he more like minions. KIDDING! (or am I) have wrote to me. I just want to say thank you. I got SO happy when I saw that you lovely people have taken time out of your lovely little lives to look at my postings (at this time I wonder if you have lives or if you just look at blogs all day :) nah I know you have lives)


To- Zombie ("As a parent, I think its hard sometimes to admit to our children when we are wrong. <3 It really isnt an excuse, but now that Im a mother, I see how difficult it is." on Rebel Without a Clue)

Yes I do realize that it is hard. It is human nature regardless of being a parent or not ,that it is difficult to admit being wrong. I do understand where you are coming from. You want respect out of your children and when you say that yes, you were wrong, you don't want to lose that and also lose the image that they of you. Children see what you do and they definitely look up to you. When you have a slip in parenthood and make the same mistake several times, at the worst times of it, they see it and make a note of it in their minds that this is the way to act. I know no one is perfect, so no one is the perfect parents, just keep in mind that the things that you do on a daily basis, your children will see and without thinking exactly, make a note of it and most likely do it themselves. Which might get you upset and you will probably forget that you did the same thing.
Example- You do something wrong and your child knows that you did, yet you do not take the responsibility for your actions. And lets say you do this a lot and not just once. when they do something wrong they will probably think "well my parent did not when they did something wrong, so I guess why should I".
It is a fine line between this and also being higher in power since you are an adult and they are your child. but just know that when you do not say "What I did was wrong", they look to you as an example and if you do not say that, that was not an example that you should follow, they might end up copying it and when you get mad at them for it, they will be a little confused as to why what they did was wrong when they see you do it a lot.
Parenting is hard, I understand. Just stay Strong and I am sure your child/children will flourish.


To- Goldenmist ("That's sweet. It's good you found someone that u hav such strong feelings 4." on my life with my boyfriend)

Thank you very much. Yes, I do have strong feelings for him. I do not know what we are going to do when he graduates high school after this coming school year, but we will figure something out. I will let you know more little stories about him as time progresses.


To- Coloradocasters ("Hopefuklly this will work itself out in time. Stumbled across your blog via blogger cafe and now following. Feel free to stop by m boring fishing blog if you get really bored." on Rebel Without a Clue)

Thank you, I hope so to. What does not kill you makes you stronger. Also, don't think of your blog as boring, that will not help yourself or your blog at all. I am not into fishing myself, but I know my boyfriend is. He was the one who actually taught me to fish for my first time. I will check out your blog, no worries. Also thank you for stopping by on my blog and following me. I hope you find my blog entertaining and insightful. I am sure that when life moves on and I do not have this "dark cloud" over my head with the family, that my blog will also lighten up and be more enjoyable, so stick around. My blog will change moods when I do. And with school starting, this blog should be interesting ha ha.


To- ima girl ("I know what it is like to want to be perfect. You are doing good having a blog.It helps to write about things that you went through, its like a release. I also know what it was like to be abused even though mine was different and for different reasons.I am in a girls home now and a ward of the state. Don't feel sorry for me because I now have a chance to grow up the right way and am kept safe. Anyways just saying hello (: on Hi i highly doubt anyone will be reading my blog... but here goes)

Hi back to you. I am sure you are tired of people giving you pity, and me too. I do not have it as bad as you, but if I told my friends about things in my life, well basically attention is not what I am searching for. We could all learn a few things from you about how to stay hopeful in something like this. I am glad that you find your situation happy, rather than dwelling on the past like people would think of you to do and for that I applaud. I do not seek for perfection, but more of acceptance for who I am and have people who are close to me to not wish for who I am not. My opinion is why search and want perfection when it does not exist, but more of a figment of imagination. Really what is perfect? The reason I do not search and try to be it is because I will never be happy if I keep trying. I used to though, strive to keep up with what my father wants me to be. I stopped trying to though because his standards of a daughter are too high to ever be met by anyone. I almost pity him myself. For he will never be in full happiness.

To- Micheal Westside ("You know what? I'm going to follow you." on Rebel Without a Clue)

Great!! I am glad you can join us on the adventure into my life. I hope you enjoy what I have to offer :) I like the way you are for sure wanting to join me by following. I hope you read on and find what I have to say inspiring and helpful.

Continue to blossom my dearly beloved followers. No matter how old we are, we still have a lot to learn about life and I hope you learn from my mistakes. Take what you can out of my blabbering posts and please share with friends and family (since this blog is a little personal to share with my own friends and family). Take care and until then goodnight and goodbye. I will try to post again tomorrow.

Sincerely,

Shelly <3

P.S- sorry to the people who commented on my blog. I deleted them from my published list, thinking that they would still show up on my blog. I promise I will not do that again. So they will be up there forever and ever. :P sorry about that