The accward moment when you realize that the movies is just a glamed up version of reality

What was I expecting? A handsome guy that I don't even know to sweep me off my feet and ask me to go to homecoming? So what! i wasn't asked, it's not the end of the world. The guy I seem to sorta like... well he knows I exist, but not much beyond that. Perhaps I walk up to him and say "hey whats up?", but that's a little... ODD! someone you don't even know walks up to you and wants to start a conversation with you, usually doesn't happen. "hi... I think your cute", O HECK NO! That's making your way into creeper status. How on earth should a girl get to know a guy and give hints that are big enough so he can see them, but not to overwhelming to the point where he is freaked out. As simple as a greeting may seem, it is actually most complicated. It is when the other person has their first judgement of you, whether it may be accurate or not. Well I guess I was sort of hoping for high school to be a fairy tale and somehow I'd be Cinderella with a dashing, lovely prince. Well I guess I needed to wake up and smell the world's polluted air, it's high school... full of zits and hormones, not the movies in Hollywood. For now, I am done with love. Maybe I will pick it up again when I'm in collage or maybe later. For now, I'm sick of it. Maybe I just need to realize that I don't need to get a man. I'm lil Miss. Independent. Who knows, but I thought a guy could maybe just ask me, and maybe it would possibly be the guy that I've been eyeing in class. But why get my hopes up?

Sincerely,

Shelly <3 (aka the one with no love life :P)

P.S- any advice about what I should do about my crush would be appreciated, thanks.