Pride of the Heart

I had forgot to mention that yesterday, what went on. I mainly talked about the day before. So yesterday was accward for me to talk to my dad and when I did, he would respond, but not the words that were being said, instead it was the mannor inwhich it was said to me, that gave me the feeling that he still wasn't willing to talk to me, even if it was just small talk. I stayed away from being in my room, since he got mad at me the day before for that. I stayed out, swam in the pool and sat around, helping my mom when nessisary. My mom told me later that day to go with her to run erronds. We went to the mall to shop for a new bathingsuit for her since we are going on vacation on the 26th, then target, and lastly to get an oil change in the car. It was nice to get out of the house and not see dad be grumpy. While we were out, he went to work on the car. Yet when we got back, he was already home.

 I had asked my mom if I could go to the conncert at the park and she said ok. So we had dinner first. My dad was up stairs in the office and like always my mom yelled loud and clear the dinner ws ready. Dad said nothing, but we ate anyways. We figured he was too stuburn and mad to come down and eat with his family. As mom and I pumped the tires for my bike, my dad opens the door to the garage and looks at my mom (you could tell he was pissed). My mom just simply looked at him and said "what?", instead of a responce, he just rolled his eyes and slammed the door. As I was about to ride off, I heard him yell at my mom, saying that he did not heard her call dinner. I felt terrible for leaving because I then would not be there to protect her. All i could think about was, "what if he hits her?". I went anyways, yet I was worried most of the time.

When i got back, my dad was giving me and her trhe cold shoulder, yet she still tried to make him happy. She shouldn't feel the need to have to go pleasing him when he treats her that way.

Today, my mom woke me up and told me to walk the dog and get ready to leave at 10:30. She wanted me to go with her to costco with her and grandma. This was diffrent; typically she  Would just go with my grandma and i would stay at home. I am not dumb, I knew this was about dad, but how this was going to help, i was not sure. As I walked the dog, I called my grandma asking if she had any insight on what was going on. She told me that things were going to be diffrent with mom, and it will make dad upset, but it is for the best and it will eventually make life at hom easier. She then told me that my mom was trying to proctect me from my father for awhile, just untill he cools down.

After we went to Mashalls then Cosco, grandma dropped my mom and I off. We would then pick her up in about an hour to go to Eddie Bower. I was told to have my bags packed by the time to leave to pick grandma up. I am staying at my grandparents for this weekend. Maybe then my parents can straighten things out, yet I am worried since i will not be there to protect my mother. I have protected her for 13 years and i understand that it is changing now. All the same I do not like it; it has been my role for years to be the "parent". (so you can see why I got pissed two days ago when my dad says I don't contribute to the family... when really he is blinded by ignorance.

I found this saved on microsoft word. It was saved in December, yet I do not remember typing it, but i know I did most likely type it myself; probabily something that I had to do for my language arts class.

Pride of the Heart by Shelly

Pride of the heart

Life takes all

Death takes all

Things of the wild

Wild side

Souls rest in uproar

Window to souls

Eyes of the sailor

Sailed into the blue

I do not know the meaning of this, but let me know your interpritation of this peom.

Once again.... sincerely,

Shelly