I finnally got my laptop up and running again!

The reason I have not been posting about my life to you lovelys is simple. My laptop battery was getting old and could only last for about 2 min. Then one day the laptop just shut off on me while I was using it, so I finnally got it working again. So there is quiet a bit to catch you all up on even though it was only a few months ago (feburary) since I last posted.

"C" and I broke up because he had big problems. I helped him through it during the course of our relationship and he is now getting help from a councilor and parents. It ended up being anxiety, yet it tested our relationship too much before he was getting help. Plus when I broke up with him, he wouldn't leave me alone. He sent me about 11 emails and texted me for months. We now hardly speak unless it is Mock Trial related (he joined that at the school so I have to deal with him there). He always is acting like I am dumb and has to seem better than me.

For my choir solo I think I did pretty good, yet see for yourself

For choir we went to an amusement park. I ended up going with a group of people. One in particular... I'll call him "J" in this blog. I've known him since my freshman year and on the bus ride back to the school, I sat next to him. Our group of friends were talking about prom and how "J" should take me since he was a junior (going to be senior now) just so that way I can go with the group. After the conversation I fell asleep and accidentally leaned on him. He didn't mind since he didn't arouse me. We were friends for some time after that, then I found out he liked me and I liked him then too. He has had a very troubled past, yet I try to look past that since he isn't looking back on it and won't be making the same mistakes. We are now in a relationship. I think I jumped into it too soon for I had just broke up with "C". It was March 31 when he asked me on the last day of the choir concert.
    Well now he has been acting distant lately and he says it's not me, that he is insecure about himself and he gets jealous easily. He said he had a dream about me dancing with all my exes yet when I came to dance with him, the song was over. Also when we are in a group, like I said he is distant, yet when we are alone it seems that all we do is be sexual towards each other. We have exchanged "I love you"'s yet it seems to be meaningless now. I miss him the way he was, charming and not distant, so easy to talk to.

I don't have any coments to reply to, which is disapointing. I was expecting some since I was gone for so long, but :/ fine I see how it is.

Sincerely,
Shelly

"I love you..." :/

So Sadie's is coming up and I am working on how in going to ask "C" to that dance... I'm thinking of having something on his desk in each class and have a lil tag on each of them spelling S-A-D-I-E-S? I don't want to just ask him... How boring :P I also want to show him how it's done lol. Since he just plainly asked me to winter formal. He still is saying "I love you", but it's in texts now. I haven't responded to them, since it'll be in the conversation. I'm afraid to love him and then have it break my heart. So I do have strong feelings though. Tonight he is apparently going to tell me a secret about him, he doesn't want me to tell anyone. I'm scared... My last bf that told me a secret... Well it was that he did drugs and that ended up breaking us up. So i don't know what to expect.

"C" told me last night that his mom probably will not approve of me. He he hasn't told his parents that we are together yet. She won't like me for three reasons according to him. One I don't share the same religious beliefs, two I am into acting and singing and she does not believe in arts she believes in strictly academics. Art is a waste of time according to her. Also the third reason why she probably wouldn't like me is because I am not in the same smart classes has "C" is and therefor according to what "C" said she would think that he can do better. So he wants me to meet his parents so that way they got to know me before they started to Judge. :/ so hopefully they'll like me. I have never had any problems with adults, they all usually like me. Yet his mom seems to have a stick up her butt. Very controlling. Wouldn't even let "C" pick his own classes for the next year at school, all boring academic classes not one class that he actually wants to do. She won't even talk to him and discuss it at all.

Also why I don't want to say "I love you" back is I might be moving to south Carolina. My family's on the fence about it. I have yet to tell Connor. I'm also afraid to tell him and since I don't know for sure if we are, I'll wait till we know for sure.

Also I made The choir solo :D so yay!!

Sincerely,
Shelly <3

My bad luck... Into good luck somehow

Ok so it's been a long two weeks. Sorry I haven't posted in awhile but here let me catch you up. Last wenseday I hit a truck pulling out of a blind driveway with my bike. I still have at least 5 bruises, 2 being large and colorful still. I am very luck that all I got was those and a scrape on my knee. Friday I got sick and couldn't go to the school faculty play with "C" :( but I am getting better now. I'm loosing my voice a little and have a cough. This wenseday I tried out for a solo for choir while my voice isnt the best. I'll know WHEN I make it on Friday haha. "C" and I went to a school function tonight, the comedy sports match. We kissed... About 3 times after the show :D

Mom just came home from leaving on her 4 day trip to Los Vagas with grandma and her cousins from Ohio. So dad was taking care of me.... It went alright. He annoyed me sometimes though, he was actually nice most of the time.

I'm sure you are wondering what "C" got me and what I got him for valentines day. We ended up both writing a peom and I gave him a flower with it and he gave me 3 Godiva cholcolet squares... YUM! And his poem was so sweet!! Yet in the end he put... "I love you, will you be my valentine".... He loves me?? Already!? What on earth... It made me think "WHOA! Toooo fast!" I didn't mention that part of the peom to him. So I don't know what to think.

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To- white Flowers ("That is so exciting about 'C', I bet you are over the moon :) I hope you have a great relationship :) Please look on my profile as I need some advice :) - White Flowers") on Life... might not be so bad

Thanks :)yea I am "over the moon" about it... Never heard that term used before... Huh. And yes I did comment. So ya :D

Also I am sorry, I am unable to upload funny pictures or videos after my signature because my iPhone isn't aloud to do that on this website... And wifi is down so can't use the laptop. :( so sorry!

Sincerely,
Shelly <3

Learn more about the other, the more they seem to shine

Well today "C" and I talked on the phone. We have a discrepancy in religious beliefs. I am egoistic (don't have a particular belief) and he is Christian. He says he doesn't mind, yet I can tell he wishes I was Christian. It hurts him to think about if we were to both die, that his beliefs, based on what I believe, I wouldn't go to heaven. He doesn't believe that I am a bad person or anything, just that you simply have to believe in Christ to go to heaven, yet he says that it isn't his job to say or decide who goes to heaven or not. He says he isn't going to break up with me because of whatever I want to believe. He excepts me for who I am and likes all that he sees. He is honestly the most nicest, sweetest, smartest, soft spoken, gentalman like guy I have ever met. He may not be the tough, muscular, the best looking guy at school, but his personality and machuraty is 1 in a billion. He is the kind of guy that you wish your daughter would meet. He already has strong feelings for me. He says he likes me a lot, yet I know tonight he wanted to say that he loves me, but didn't want to freak me out. I like him alot, I wouldn't be surprised if I end up loving him sooner or later. I just hope we last for awhile. I really like how he doesn't like me for my looks. Though he probably thinks it is a plus (not trying to seem conceded), he doesn't let that define his judgement. He is not at all like my dad. He will treat me right and would never slap or hit me. He knows that if he mistreats me (which he won't) that I will not be so dumb as to stay, but no, he treats me right. He makes sure that I am comfortable and happy. He tells me all the time that he does not want to pressure me in something I don't want to about anything. I trust him. That is a lot for me, to trust some one.

Observing the Singing Compition

Tonight was a good night. It was just me and "C" watching the choir competition. We held hands for a while but then his hands started to get sweaty again. So instead, he just wraped his arm around me and I rested my head on his chest. I wish it didn't have to end, the more time I spend with him, the more I like him. He is simple and strang, yet in a good way. If you knew him, you would like him. You'd understand how nice he is and appriechate his choices in life.

Life... might not be so bad

Ok, so Yesterday "C" asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. So I might refer to him as "C" or as my boyfriend.... Geez it's so weird calling him my bf only because I am not used to it. I was just getting used to being single, now I have an adjustment to make. We went to the game today and we held hands for a little while, but then his palms were getting sweaty, so he ended up rapping his arm around my shoulders. He said that his palms get sweaty when he's nervous and boy! Is he nervous around me! Haha... It's too cute. He is so new to relationships, but hey! He's doing just fine <3 The only thing about him putting his arm around me was it was very hard to get in a good position, since he was kind of bend over so I had to as well because other wise my torso would have been taller than him and that causes discomfort and then if I stay hunched over for awhile, then it also hurts. So we will have to work on that a little. 
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To-  Indra Mohan (" Congrats for "C"" on  Sooo you will prob hear more about "C")

Haha you don't congratulate me, but instead him. XD nice lol. Well I am glad you are reading my blog, hope you enjoy reading this post!


To-  Eldudorio ("Good for you. Very nice voice by the way. Not what I was expecting.") on Sooo you will prob hear more about "C"

Well thank you :) I am glad you liked it and haha! Just because I'm not famous (for all you know ;) and blog on the internet doesn't mean I suck, if that's how you got that assumption. Stay true and following :D

Sincerely,

Shelly <3

Never saw Star Wars, nor do I plan to... but for those that do, enjoy! :D

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Sooo you will prob hear more about "C"

Ok so Winter Formal was on Friday :) it was awesome :D so my parents got to meet "C" at my friend's house. They were there to take pictures and what little they saw of him, they liked. So anyways we danced and I beat him at the Wii game, just dance 2 times! There was a photo booth there so we took funny pictures. They turned out pretty cute and we also took a formal picture and I should get that one this Friday. The highlight of the two of us is that we slow danced!! :D He is so cute, not a very coordinated dancer, but heck I am certainly not a dancer either. So yesterday he held my hand, and I let him. Today we held hands more often, in fact every time we walked somewhere, he'd grab my hand.... It's so sweet! I think he is going to ask me to be his girlfriend soon. This week I am hoping to go see the school's basketball game with him (Thursday) and then go see a singing performance also at school (Friday). So we are calling them "dates" and in my perspective what is the difference whether we call it hanging out or a date, we are spending time together and probably will hold hands again.

Sincerely,

Shelly <3

This is how I did at singing the National Anthem :) Whats your opinion?