( . )Y( . ) Breast Cancer Awareness! Save 2nd Base!

Today I walked for the cure of breast cancer. Docter OZ was said to be at the later one, so I thought that was pretty cool. My family and I walked so the time was 1 hour and 11 minuets. We had to walk slow so grandma could keep up. There was a sea of people there, it was all very moving. There was so many people that survived or lost their lives to breast cancer. If you are reading this blog and know someone that has or had it or maybe it's yourself, keep fighting and staying strong. I deffinitly have respect for you women and men that have fought it or fighting it. It was so sad to see people who have lost their mothers or sisters because of this. Some have lost both.

Dad is being grumpy these few days and who knows why. He started using a tone on my mom that she didn't like. She pointed it out to him and said not to use that tone when talking to her, and that it was rude (good for her for standing up for herself finnally), so ever since then he's been a not so happy camper.

I love my grandma to death, but o dear lord, is she a talker. She says the same stories over and over, and even if we are in a public bathroom, it's "blah, blah, blah, blah". So it annoys everyone, also no matter how slow we go so she can keep up, she will fall behind and her excuse is, is that she can't keep up with our fast pace (even though we slow down alot), but again, I do love her.

I've got a lot of work to do, I am planning on trying out for the Mock Trial Team at my highschool! It's tomarrow. Wish me luck! ;)

Home-comming is just around the corner. I wonder if I'm going to get asked, otherwise I don't know if I'm going to go or not. It is a formal dance and I wonder how many people go with their freinds and not with dates. That brings me to another question, if I get asked out to the dance, I wonder if I'll be aloud to go, since my parents might not be ready for that yet. :( I have no idea what time would be the best for me to ask my parents. There is never a right time. Something is ussually going on and someone is not a good mood to talk about things like that. O the drama in my house, It is always something.

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To tiana- ("Ok so this comment aint about your post here but the quote at the top. I like that quote a bunch Check out my blog tiana248.blogspot.com" on ~boys, boys, boys~ :D)
O thank you, I actually made that quote up myself. I don't think anyone else has ever said that quote. I was just bored and created it on the computer. I am glad that you enjoy it and I hope it has inspired you in some shape or form. Also, I would love to check out your blog. Ive been a smidge busy, but I will when I can :D thank you for putting the website on the comment :D I'd love to check it out!

To Toni Ponzo- ("Hi Shelly, just found your blog while searching for help in the support forums. Pretty interesting. Keep up the good work." on ~Boys, Boys, Boys~ :D) Thank you Toni, I am happy that you like it. I hope you continue to follow me on my travels through life and read this little blog of mine, through the ups and the downs. :)   Sincerely, Shelly <3 P.S once again, Followers please tell your friends ande family about this. I don't know, when you are sitting with your family having dinner, or when your just hanging out with your friends. I can't share mine with my freinds and family, because it in a way is too peronal to share with people who know me personaly. So SHARE!! don't be selfish :D that is your Homework for this week, okay??

~Boys, Boys, Boys~ :D

Hey long time no blog, right? Sorry, I've been busy, which is good for you because I've got a lot then to share. Well my boyfriend and I have long sense broken up now as of Friday, September 9th. I broke up with him because; well I was ready to be single again and I strangely all of a sudden lost interest in him. Maybe had something to do with school starting, who knows.

I've already got two guys for sure that like me. One though, I do not like (i mean he is my best guy friend) and can't be in relationship anyways. He is my best friends X-boyfriend and she asked me not to even though I'm not interested anyway. She says she is jealous of me for my looks and personality and doesn't want another reason :/ I think she is pretty, smart, and funny. She has yet to see that though. The other guy, well I think he's nice, if we see each other after school, he will go out of his way to walk me all the way home, then turn around and go half way back to his house. I did not ask him to do that, that was all on him. We talk all the way to my house. He isn't the cutest, but he is nice looking and not a jerk, so we'll see. I am not looking for a relationship though.

Also there are some pretty cute guys in my vocal ensemble class, one of them I think keeps looking at me, but I don't know if it is me that he sees or the girl next to me. But the other one who doesn't look at me, well I really wish he would talk to me. He accepted me as a friend on facebook, but that means nothing. I hope I get asked out to the homecoming dance. It's a little while away though, October 14th. I hope that guy in my choir will ask me, highly doubt it though. I am tempted to mail him on facebook.

Also there is is this other guy who was in my history class (I got a schedule change, so I am not in that class anymore), I would always catch him staring at me ha-ha. I found out that he is one of my friend's (not close friend though) twin brother and he is my age. I think he's nice, but I don't see him that often now since we don't have any classes together anymore.

This other guy who is my friend, well we text each other and he flirts a lot lol. I asked him if he flirts with all the girls and he said that he tends not to. Hmmm... possibly a third guy likes me. I become available for a little over a week and about three guys are already showing interest. Is it the way I look? I hope not. I want them to like me for who I am, not for that. Well who knows, I have no idea why guys are so interested, but they just are. It's... odd, not saying that I mind it, I am just not used to all the guy attention.

Sincerely,

Shelly <3

Old dogs and New Tricks

Today was my first day of school. My teachers seem alright, but who knows since it is only the first day. Kinda hectic with everyone not knowing where to go. The freshmen are so tinny this year and i only grew a half inch and I am not tall, just average. I am ready for things to settle down and have anything be a routine.

We took the dog to the vet. He is 13 years old and starting throwing up these past few days and also not eating; not even treats. The only thing that they could do is to check blood work to see if he has cancer, but even if they find out what it is, they can't do anything besides heroic measures. We put him down and I stayed in the room with him. When you watch something or someone die, look up because they will see your face before they go to the light. It was hard and I had to make the decision since he was my dog. It all happened so fast and I am still in shock (as I type all this, I am tearing up). School starts up tomorrow, so I have to put on my smile to hide my tears. We rescued him from an owner who neglected him. We gave him a good life for 3 years.

Sincerely,

Shelly

This post is dedicated to "AJ" march 1998- September 2011

Goodbye who cares what you look like, it's summer... Hello make up and hair straightener, it's school

Today, I went out and got school supplies. Target is already packing away all the back to school items! I hope I got everything I need. Sophomore year... hmm at least I know where everything at the school is, unlike last year. I didn't even know where the gym was! O.o!!

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To-anonymous ("without being insensitive to your feelings, I think you should forget about getting slapped by your dad. Lots of dads do it. I've been beaten and slapped, and I have to say, Its has made me a much better person. You might not appreciate it now but you will someday. p.s. I have never known a dad who apologized for slapping or beating their child (and meant it sincerely)!" posted on- Just keep Swimming)

That is physical abuse if your father beat you and by the law of the united states that is illegal. He could possibly lose custody over you if you are under 18 years of age. It is not really the fact of the action necessarily, but more of the promise my father made to both my mom and myself. Both my parents had promised me that they would never use physical punishment. I have had several trust issues with my parents and I had finally started to feel safe around them again. He broke his promise to me by doing that. I will say that I do not feel safe around him.
He is not what you would call the normal father. My dad has said that he likes control and if he is not in control, he does not like it and that is with anything, not just with me (example- when i was 3 years old, we had a family get together. I was talking with my grandparents and my dad called me over. So i came over and he didn't want anything, but just showing my grandparents that he has control. It was slightly appalling to the whole family as my dad did this).
 I have found that my dad's side it is easy to get addicted to things, starting with my great grandpa- alcohol, uncle- drugs, other (alive) uncle- food, my dad- Ice tea, chewing gum, and control. I am not aloud to express my opinion or feeling in any way. They say that I can, but when I do I get yelled at, regardless of the manner in which I give my feeling or opinion. For that reason my house in not really the most "safe" environment for a child. Th rules way back when was to be seen and not heard, but those rules do not fit to modern times. You may find it ok that adults beat children, but I find it wrong. There are other ways as to set children straight without giving them bruises and black eyes. Take away privileges, depending on how old they are put them in time out or ground them, make them do chores around the house. It is simple enough to let them learn without making the environment that they live in harmful. (Look at the TV show "super nanny". She is highly trained and she is against beating or physical abuse towards children. She makes even the brats behave without hurting them)
I am glad though that this way of being brought up worked for you. I do hope that if you have any children though, that you do not beat them. Like I said that is illegal and you could lose your children.

Sincerely,

Shelly

Just Keep Swimming

Hmm well seems to me that my followers aren't doing their homework... I've asked you all to share with your friends and family this blog, but it seems to me that you have not. :'( see??? you're all making me cry because you obviously don't care enough about me. How does that make you feel? huh?? Making a 15 yr old girl cry?? Evil I say... EVIL!

Well anyways, I know it has been Long since I last blogged... Well not too terribly long, but longer than I have gone without blogging. So here's a catch up on things :D

~I went parasailing and kayaking on my vacation as well as several trips to the beach
~While I was at the beach, it was just me and my mom. She asked what was said when my dad talked to me, so i told her, and also we had some creepy admirers as the beach that day. 2 guys, one in his 30's prob and one prob in his 50's. They asked us to go grab some beer with them. If only they knew I was 15 and she is 47
~I had a bar tender try to flirt with me while I was at the swimming pool  in the place we stayed at
~I came back home on Friday

I STILL have to go school shopping and school starts on Tuesday!! O.o o noooo! o well

Ok i was just randomly writing a song and this line came up... I like it.
 "Smiling even though on the inside, it's upside down"

And no I am not in a bad mood or anything, I am actually quite happy :) so I don't know why I thought of that line but I did.

Me and my boyfriend have been going out for almost 7 months (when its the 14th). I do know that's not a long time, but for high school, it certainly is. I still have to tell my parents that we are back together :P crap. I do not look forward to that because my dad seemed so proud of me for making what he thinks is the "right" choice (even though they left it up to me). His opinion is I shouldn't get back together with him. I can't not be with him though. He has every piece of me in his hands. I plan on telling them, obviously; I must tell them and soon! So I think after the first week of school should be good.

My dad and I are going swimmingly. He has yet to apologize for slapping me, though I think he never will. I do not trust him, but over all we do have a good time together. I am growing more comfortable with talking to him, but every time he is behind me, I don't like it. I want him in front of me at all times.

Well that is about it for my life... And also comment!! I have no Comments to respond to on this post :'( see?? You're making me cry AGAIN!!! waaah wahhh!!! you hate me, you really hate me!

Sincerely,

Shelly :'(

PS- I really hate these pop up things that underline my words in blue!! GO AWAY and if you want an add on my blog you better ask and you better pay me, but I don't want to fill my blog with crap! Stupid adds and also sorry followers for having to deal with these annoying things that destroy humanity!