Well before My family and I went out to dinner, my dad in a way apologized to me. He first started off saying that there were things that he should have handled differently and there were things that I should have handled differently (not completely taking responsibility, but alright that's a start). Then he said that the last thing that was said was he asked if I still hated him and I said I don't know. I spent the weekend at my grandparents and then came back. He said that he gave me my space to think about it and then let him know. So he had been waiting on me to confront him (childish). So I then said, I do not hate you. You are my dad. I love you. I do hate the way you acted, but I do not hate you. He then said well I would have preferred if you confronted me and told me sooner. I said well I'm telling you now. So are we ok now? He said no. He said that things are said for a reason no matter what emotion you have. I then said ok well using your logic, when you called me a bitch and an ass, you meant it. he said I meant it by your actions. We then discussed this and he then said that he is truly sorry that I thought that he was labeling me as that. He said that my actions made me seem like a spoiled little brat who gets in hissy fits if she doesn't get what she wants.... Ouch! seriously, nice that he wanted to share his feelings, but there are opinions that parents should just leave unsaid. He did not apologize for slapping me. That was the only thing he apologized for, was calling me those things. We are better now. I think he did that because my grandma is coming over today and he wanted to make sure there wouldn't be tension with her around. At least we are better and on speaking terms. I am still not comfortable around him. Things are looking up a bit.
I have school registration today. I hope my school picture will look good. My boyfriend said who cares, it's a "1" by "1" picture with 1,000 other pictures. Well I do. I want my kids to look at my school pictures one day. At least have them know I was one cool kid growing up.
Sincerley,
Shelly <3
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