I finnally got my laptop up and running again!

The reason I have not been posting about my life to you lovelys is simple. My laptop battery was getting old and could only last for about 2 min. Then one day the laptop just shut off on me while I was using it, so I finnally got it working again. So there is quiet a bit to catch you all up on even though it was only a few months ago (feburary) since I last posted.

"C" and I broke up because he had big problems. I helped him through it during the course of our relationship and he is now getting help from a councilor and parents. It ended up being anxiety, yet it tested our relationship too much before he was getting help. Plus when I broke up with him, he wouldn't leave me alone. He sent me about 11 emails and texted me for months. We now hardly speak unless it is Mock Trial related (he joined that at the school so I have to deal with him there). He always is acting like I am dumb and has to seem better than me.

For my choir solo I think I did pretty good, yet see for yourself

For choir we went to an amusement park. I ended up going with a group of people. One in particular... I'll call him "J" in this blog. I've known him since my freshman year and on the bus ride back to the school, I sat next to him. Our group of friends were talking about prom and how "J" should take me since he was a junior (going to be senior now) just so that way I can go with the group. After the conversation I fell asleep and accidentally leaned on him. He didn't mind since he didn't arouse me. We were friends for some time after that, then I found out he liked me and I liked him then too. He has had a very troubled past, yet I try to look past that since he isn't looking back on it and won't be making the same mistakes. We are now in a relationship. I think I jumped into it too soon for I had just broke up with "C". It was March 31 when he asked me on the last day of the choir concert.
    Well now he has been acting distant lately and he says it's not me, that he is insecure about himself and he gets jealous easily. He said he had a dream about me dancing with all my exes yet when I came to dance with him, the song was over. Also when we are in a group, like I said he is distant, yet when we are alone it seems that all we do is be sexual towards each other. We have exchanged "I love you"'s yet it seems to be meaningless now. I miss him the way he was, charming and not distant, so easy to talk to.

I don't have any coments to reply to, which is disapointing. I was expecting some since I was gone for so long, but :/ fine I see how it is.

Sincerely,
Shelly